We are a few days away from the New Year. I start asking myself questions about the future, as I see the New Year approaching.
This morning while listening to the Singing Rambo's, I heard a song that focused me back to "what it's all about."
"Is there anything I can DO for you? Anything I can do? For all the things you've done for me...Is there anything I can do?
I'm willing to be used dear Lord, what're the price may be. So, if there's anything I can DO for you, just make it known to me.
Is there anything I can BE for you...anything I can be? For all the things you've been to me, Is there anything I can be?
Is there anywhere I can GO for you! Anywhere I can go? Forsaking all to follow you, is there anywhere I can go?"
Of late, Wendell and I have had many conversations about the past, the present, and the future. In April, he resigned his position as Texas District Secretary. We had lived in Lufkin for eight years as he filled his time serving the brethren of Texas District. We put our house on the market, and it sold rather quickly. We stored our earthly belongings in the storage buildings we rented, packed our motorhome and decided to travel for however long the Lord wanted us to. California was our destination.
For six months we enjoyed being with family and friends in the beautiful state of California. We enjoyed two Camp Meetings, and the cool weather along the coast. Our hearts were filled with a lot of memories from being raised in the Western District in California. Now, there are two districts, and we enjoyed both. From San Diego to Eureka we preached, renewed friendships, and made new friends. We were treated with much love and respect as we travelled the district. Memories were made and we look forward to returning someday, if the Lord wills.
After returning to Texas, we preached a few places, then we were asked to come to Comanche, TX where Bro. Greg Hardin had pastored. We were all saddened when the Lord took him home. The saints at Comanche miss him very much, and after several weeks of seeking the will of God for the future, they were not ready to vote in another pastor, so they asked us to come help them through this time of healing.
Roll back time...Thirty-six years ago we were voted in at Comanche, TX. We had two little boys, each other, and were very tired and discouraged. The small congregation that greeted us were loving and kind, and knew how to pray. They were wanting revival and growth, so eventually we had new people getting the Holy Ghost and being baptized in Jesus Name. It was an exciting time for the church and for us. God knew we had to have something happen after suffering an onslaught of feeling like a failure. (This is another story I will share with you someday). We stayed in Comanche for almost four years, and when we left, the church had grown and was doing great. I was sad to leave such precious people, but God had another place He needed us. Now, we are back for a time. Maybe we can repay them for the love and care they gave to us when we were broken.
Back to the present...Questions come with the dawning of 2017.
Lord...What do you have planned for our future? What can we do to help further your Kingdom?
In discussing our future there are times I have stated MY wants. Oh, I would love to have a quiet life and have my dream fulfilled to live in a house with a big porch. I'd love for our kids and grandkids to come and stay, play, and enjoy time away from the hustle and bustle of life. I'd love to have family dinners sitting around a big table, with a fire in the fireplace. Then, take the rest of the evening sitting on the big porch watching the sunset, drinking sweet tea or Diet Coke, and enjoy each other's company. Yes, I have MY wants, MY desires...but what does HE have planned?
All of my life I've been taught that the will of God is the most important place to be. I've been taught that it's not MY desires that's to be fulfilled, but HIS will. I've been taught that I must sacrifice MY will for HIS. Even though there are times my flesh kicks and screams as I take it to the altar of sacrifice, when I get up from my knees I'm able to say...Not my will, but Thine be done.
I left off the last chorus of the song I shared with you above, because it says what my heart cries...
"I'm willing to be USED, dear Lord what're the price may be. So, if there's anywhere I can GO for you, just make it known to me."
As my husband reminds me from time to time, "Honey, I don't have the luxury of telling God no."
As 2017 approaches, questions about the future arises. I know what took place this year. I know how much we enjoyed life. Now, I must leave the comfort of the past, and reach to the future. No one knows what lies ahead, but I trust Him to direct each step of the way. Where He leads me I will follow, and I will be happy walking beside my husband as He follows the will of God.